we are all alone in everybody

the lines the little dashes dots unfilled-in parts

when you look at this drawing closely enlarge it a bit maybe have it in your hands the original or treasure each other this Christmas

why, any holiday, any name for it, joy, but the perverse sdness evbil numb/ spell a little bit better, thoughts that flit through our mind, humans unable to gain the skinny thin thought bare paper film wisp wind touch of some membrane or moment elastic space outer space/ middluf, like that’s a planet “are you going to middluf?” take me with you, on love, inexpressible on earth, we all do/ misgivings, suspicions, separated vestiges being sliding over all on earth/ evol evolve embrace shade real misdsoelled cant give more stark – we live out a time a body when see can’t mask judgement just go on with life, say rottenest things or creeze by, crease? breeze, lucky yiu didn’t say it, thanks

I liked the cute little misspellings thanks

happy where the weird hold me in dire days settle into missingness lenders fix regarding brace locked I one of them going alone to mind of mine as we all do door

hope swings hinges any face small talk I gave you a glimpse

we all like unreachable glimpse words flowing in mind

forgive me I never said it in life

we all walk a day, rest 5 minute dots underlines sketches roads

it’s hard to see a dream or pounding on metal like some odd rung stikrsilver ladder likexheap logo put omn life on the ground sheet pintund and slobber and make shape hollow dust turned head to lock dreams rise up wispy middle box open middle of the night need to piss dreams onto walling head screen monitor like that or wrong concave leap, leap piss into toilet go away, any dreams

we feel like that mankind womankind humankind, we kindly show it the door anything better truly better inside

see cloud silver

dull ink, many books, I see piles wander through am sad for all the dead people graves in paper pretty solemn not worth nothing used book store quiet crisis terrorism lost damp worn stained who information bodies where did it all go where did you all go

we all tried did our best appear to be best in words

the communication, dulled, we sit in diners, have a coffee, a whiskey, a nip in glass, or spring buds wildflowers honeysuckle bedraggled dragons, ever breathe

we ever get through off-balance

look at this drawing

I slide it to you across the table

“it is me”

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the hand-done aspect of life, no artists left, it was a long time the non-artists, then just agreement full reservoir pouring out all as meaning to life, past matter, these matter forms we seem to stick in, the nonlocal consciousness then, past the edge of your body, it seems to say something

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work it out

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how it exists in this life

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what it says

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no I don’t meet in diners with a little flask for extras

my extras come through meditation

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many people are friends to that, if unspoken, no one can say, have special meetings, are there computers, login identify yourself as your reputation in art world or whatever it is

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new leanings, it is neither left-wing nor right-wing highbrow lowbrow outsider art, high flying heroin addict over-soon late 20’s art who are you darling of the art world

or just everyday guy or girl communicating with something else

our steady lives as the pocket of life but what else

tell me

sit with silent drawing

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the rest would drive you into a panic, to even say it

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you want to hold steady in your image you present, but you beg for this, before life is over, some fool make a setup for it

be allowed be supported cradled by a website organization what loose foofaraw fools maidens maiden fools male fools female, jerks or lazy good for nothings or intense meditation 4, 5 hours a day, where your inside is a nattering hell, before you find peace, all our insides are

then to peep out, have an avenue, for the communication not done since the beginning of the history of the earth

we all sigh “next”

apple pie?

papers crude abnormal honesty inside good place

Oh we all do okay this little drawing is just meant to be - - well we don’t say much

We meditate, and we don’t say much

Whu – like thst little misp[elled wird “who?” “whst?” you run the rtysdk of thst, saying snythuig in life

You don’t know

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;ike thst semntemce, spelled cirrectly

Whoops, doing it a lot here, from the inside - / Whu – like that little misspelled word “who?” “what?” you run the risk of that, saying anything in life

Your face might look weird like misspelled words try to utter sounds like grunts from a jailbird or some other bluebird/ some creature say the truth from somewhere inside a nonlocal consciousness past the edges of your body in meditation

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See some here I give you a little here

In fear never say too much/ places, not illegal not dangerous just weird unkem,p;t like the mind nit washed fyr 10 yesrs, ehose uis

Whise is, pretty English

I need a way

ah black words white paper _______________ we who art 55 cents a page go through stacks art store weird obsession loser quaint fairytale value of paper note scrutinize sketch in old-time rocking chair general store cyborg bored or tiny component glow in gut any future person do anything I'm alone crazy who's the being the dominant being paper screen sense I'm a ghost out in outer computer sense what mealymouthed description leave book read reader self trust space ______________________ we pause hail hirruycame cst cyst try to undertstand, leave alone, come back to, maybe we need meditation to break our ego, leave earth, maybe we need that .. to fluster frtystrste/ frustrate spell daily coffee word sip practice with it supported in accessible i cant spell a thing in my mind extra from what everyone does be interesting n standard _____________________________ database im sxick of it buirt can do nothing otsble unstable obselete look at again creer / creek sail shop paper boat something in me never looked at ui never fiound my whole lifetime, as i lived supposedlyfundcyy functionally scceitsble accesible .. for whst? my sex my cock my oussy friom all this "oh I dint hsve time" or the world needs time you got time experienced crazy man meditator evened out shops in grocery store gets his things __________ ___________ __________ I need a "creer" career in this, to trust it, not on the radar for my schools universities society but not illegal mountain man with big guns, no, just a mountain of suburbia pile of salt or sweep kitchen floor mind .. I need to know I can work on the rest "the rest" no one sees, not religion, not science .. be wweird/ double weird ha like a fold of paper or fold of sheets in hotel room, my stasis stilly here on earth silly stillness my mind my true nature my gut inside far off huge warehouse beyond my body/ be competent, oh some little guy or girl weird alien not flesh just thought hark okay companion doubt of life .. ________ ah forget it or the cheese of damaged mild mind then made steel or melted pooscle poo pfrozen no winter mind thoughts griund spring grvel lt it meltfallen walk on, we all have things rushing by memories a sick moment it all overwhelms too many years too many things didn't make sense earth's logic .. see this too-long title of this blog post and feel some of it, with "answers" or someone dare show it like it is crazy meditation not monastery monk but failed pornography available sweaty person clean up as we all are ../ .. sicksuciety we are here and some quirky misspellings dioubt in helper ruined man 54, does okay, weird hope in daily meditation writing for this database/ writing for fit in, ponder, no time, make it worth it sell our drawings each of us and our talk we can't do, off to the side we live life career but off to the side .. oh it's okay to have off to the side legendary off to the side of meditation, anyone

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so, tiny words here, tiny thoughts, no one has confidence for this type of work, some drawings, just quirky

oh this drawing means "just forget it" for real meaningful deep meditation knowledge you get about the world and people and life, just forget about ever sharing it.  Ever having the ability.  The words.

And all of us join on it.

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oh all of us try have visions about being a sincere monk meditator, but then pretty girls or pretty guys or whatever you're into people click things on computer see cocks cunts sorry about the rudeness, or just go to the store see tubs of ice cream like newest flavours asphalt that's really creamy caramel or post-apocalyptic asphalt creamy caramel flavour - it's all so crazy and needless to say you don't stick to meditation

none of us do

oh i soldier through.  This is my life.

I keep meditating.  yeah.  With numerous lapses in judgement and lost days .. then pick it up again.  steady as it goes.  Realistically.  Monk out of the monastery, and never a monk.  yeah the pretty girls call.  Easily fucking accessible anonymous look at all the bodies and fuck up your life fuck up your chi nobody's watching well you are reader

thanks

i have responsibilities

this crazy trip

no drugs no alcohol just meditation, and an unbalanced mind, ha

can see

with this help

work

seer construction worker construction of words sweaty my skin is pasty white wait ah get out in the summer eric still time to straighten it out tanned has poor vocabulary drinks beer writes books gets to the heart of it or just mind-numbingly dumb intellirock falling highway closed off all flow from where eff you nocturnals raccoons fuckers not much difference

but don't insult, what is this

off world, take a trip spaceship divorced from reality married formwerly form-woprm-wiggle what oh at 14 i was okay or no then i chamnged been a lot of years

different, not coming back, came back

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so this oh society, walks the dog, the dog grywld st the sun grows up sees the sun grows wild gets tooclose melts ,loves the warm happy day ah questions it

where do we go

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and these pictures, take into a cube say "yeah I drew these" "been doing your meditation?" "yeah" as if on probation lived reality too much messed up world, arrested, or notated, asked gently, would you like to live this then, wanna try? "well lets hook you up to the database measure you where you stand"

for monthly stipend or disability ability unnoticed needed now for the world to function

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hidden

we just can't get it out what it needs for it to work

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extra not in human capability we have whole lifetime, can't, dry up resources, live years, can't add to the moment, this

so this is the writing I did with the pictures, that I put up today.  The following is other writing, I did before, just starting on post, or did this offline.  Thanks.

I looked at the first drawing, "we are all here, meditation, cheap, no special effects" it was by my side look at in the paper prayer, wrote this

prayers at players in board games brats from the 1950's what? anytime you're welvolume come along nuns nones laughter cheap pray for fortune to change any of us all of us

to not be mentally ill from just life stress show up

shave whatever it is male female face legs greet the world, with this in your opocket

ha no

other layer no time no fot/ footi nmouth? say crazy thing/ no support no sense in great book "I can say this!" begin to form impossible world, even clue in meditation that seems to help non-meditators too all work on this, stop in on this time in my day in space on the day

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so yeah, here's the writing from earlier today:

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oh one more pic, this says "3 day eviction notice California" it's just some phrase I saw on the internet.  I don't know this picture shows "show up" have scans or originals future world "but not me I can say nothing, uncreated unfound world in me.

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we all from a young age have uncreated unfound world in us it just happens nothing to do with evolution or aliens or anything, or maybe it does a little of all that, but we'll never know about it/ will we?/ ah hidden treasurebox we never got to open up other clues to life besides the 2 arms 2 legs being its culture and its mind all clothes boxes of packed away shirts drawers nature of miniature wood drawers trees not hurt share dollhouses elves imagination get us through another gone things memory play that gies along with it./sleep or wish/  mini/we all feel it.  But can't do it. / wake up/ walk/ in this/ We all are swept up and busy in the world without the real us.  You just don't piece it together.  Send me enough time with the other world.  whoKnow it.

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so here's the rest of the error writing. said it accidentally for all time Thanks.

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measure pictures authenticate pictures to go along with crazy book mess everything deals with it all the impossible mess accumulation of me inside unreadable unfathomable easy does it tiger don't puke

puke out a thousand years to unlidteing/ unlid-tioghtentenin? unlistening psychistrust or fryend, hdve livelihood career in this front lawn sunny days don't look careful for enemies just walk out

done stupid too long words go on and on I never had the 10 hours I could sustain this for any reason "life" too long intellectual book

i kind of hdve time in misplsced life

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we dent silly punctuation symbolize break difference my mind my boring words my boring company no money even if I had it I wouldn't pay you to listen to me, will you sit with me, just me, each of us ask, me inside I could never form I think I've formed it will you be patient with me not laugh at me, sit with me, off a ways steal the book from me or odd arrangement internet skills I give this here then work this up/ where are we all, I ask you, where are we all, inside/ on all pictures made all photos all sights in life our eyes supposedly see

dent

take me farther

in there, I do not know

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We all .. oh I don’t know make pictures sloppy or hold very simple distances measurements in addition to how we talk, are afraid to talk.

Off-planet not TV show or streaming internet service great big budget science flies fiction paper airplanes, and us, just in us, in life, stodgy us

What is it, meditation, ruined life, or eotu read you “eh-O-what?” and off-planet or further than god belief fill in dirty clothes dirty underwear no I’m not too bad spit on my cock last night in bed masturbated says anyone remembered girls who lied purportedly good people I just walked away then, they are in a couple looking .. I don’t understand, world’s ambiguities, failures, lies, I just accept walk away meditate, disrespect chi, try to arrive at acceptance calm day, exercise be nice have purpose

In measured drawings original take ruler scan, highly accurate digital, or see me, talk, shaky

Produce system,. Measure me, inside, for goodness, past it all

We don’t even know

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Ah in any case I should just shut up, there are limits, my name is on this blog, you know how it goes, employers, police, internet, philosophers, corner store operators, keeping their eye on me, ha – you ever listened to people’s conversations surreptitiously recorded, they’re pretty hard to make out, there’s a lot of uhs and unidentifiable words, some people say “like” “like this, like uh” make a note “if you ever suspect to be surreptitiously recorded” ha, and turn music down, and ask people to quiet down, nearby conversations, and all of us clear surveillance on our minds what little we can give

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Ah like say it need be blog without your name on it, even then what are we saying people look at drawings dip into a 100,000 page book, database, of what crazy meditation serious as much as 11 hours a day of meditation, writing, at least 5 hours was meditation, serious chi kung, medical grade, hurts, is troublesome .. to see these things

What things

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Ah society joining on what they can’t, organize, mind, behind meditation, not shaky

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We really don’t need beings going through walls, what is our place, now, past TV shows

Our place shaky mind, removes you from life, meditation, ever present other world needed careful nice not abusive “just not from here” ever present it, alongside “world from here” “be what you are” “human”

Oh, don’t be freaky, but just be regular, okay?

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now that’s impossible you can write here play here but you know what it’s like in life “I know what I’m allowed, conversation see my face get a phone call get a text we are allowed certain things not this .. even here eric named blog get away with it anonymous small no one sees this test it be aware no one says this in regular conversation

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We don’t advance

Wherever we are going

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Ciompodiote cimprtehendive altruistic

Oh could you speoll thst better all our minds the workd

Cmposdite cmorehensive altruysrtuc/ composite comprehensive altruistic/ I sketch at it can’t say a thing show up in a cubicle measure me for inside can’t say as thig

Woyld lscking insude

Guve me

Measure your otoginals faltering clumdy my kid could do that maybe they could but the meditation behind it thousands of hours new carreer my inside I don’t hdve

And can’t say

Misspelled thousands of jours thousands of hours sttempts life inside the nattering yiuy encounter honest meditation but I don’t have time I have a job a career I don’t have time for the world all going wrong from inside /language my physical appearance, matter the appearance of matter, the substance so named even our thoughts seem of it glued to physical surroundingssomething is heavily missing the edge of the universe, come here conjure out of mithing missing nothing is something wide wore out breathe skinny acceptable appearance into this plod oblong line verywruiring here, sketch that last mispellerd go the government or private cubicle roo me hop for inside for earth measure carry baby you your work at last desperastely needed/and pther people make acceptable matter out of it, skeych lousy scratchy AND THERM or can thery, furthet into “or thiouyghrts made it” “ not the edge of thr universe” or it isd here I line it up cam thik the eiotu edge if the universe past gid or incrprstig gud dtsbelief belief firther int nasty cranky whole thig tired swasety drawing and medustuiiong abnd fasiling fur inside commin/ PLEASE!! Stop misspelling/ respell that last sentence/ disbelief belief further into nasty cranky whole thing tired sweaty drawing and meditating and failing for inside common/ coming to earth or through us or ugly flaky no-mind blown-mind not society acceptable nirmal scsred ti saym named blog named oerson in the futureflesh of words hovering there touch talk about not drunk high/ can’t/ won’t appear as that ever another human to see me, no/ I go on with it as it is/ is this comprehensive, eric, is there much more? text computer isore I saw me untrued unfirmed

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All

Join

To express

A page draw unskilled jate art am not part of art worldClumsily

Hate, love/ try sopirtuality so appear appreciate good people a few or are they close-mud-walk-ended tyo alien s watch ing eutu watching meditation deep morte crazy petite mortified? Settle down here, house, no gut only one to exit.  See.  /Try the tiny parts here millions of people tiny parts of world tired after it all religion science opportunity aisles of store, lower head look at floor buy what you need don’t think hidden I survived tiodisplay this what is this/papers media small no hadline good picture absolute pish media phot graophics or none for me inside just thisd and meditation thousands of hours cannot say helpers from non-meditators and meditators alike/ tired/ for inside location common bond we don’t have, say avoid be careful, hold it close to the vest build the impossible, and shuddup

Scurry slurry of white swesrt black ytarts asphalt sugary trust look sround furtuveky

Do this over years

People push look

Confident don’t see ciofuident/ co I interest you look at you fidgetngky hiding your inwsyde just like me they need

We all tired eyes skip focus blame dirtch another one ditch me too another one gone read give up on habit disregard no one can say close all develop help him non-writers writers people walk the face of the earth apocaplypser glimpse bad writing like me ha before ye real apocalyspse

Ah messed up writing give it diouble space a bit of soace to breath ah odd read some of shit present dat bmot seep go back don’t have time

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life is hard, soft pillow, sleep, wake up, hope you had a good night, ah life snow sand world

Well what I mean, oh it’s just a drawing I did about myself a few days ago or just people in general seeking depth – I mean in all the wars going on all over the world, it’s ugly, if you see the people dead, shot up, you return home, if you’re lucky enough to, there’s no glory, there’s no patriotism, you’re just tired and burnt out .. /and in meditation, similar, or farther – I’m talking hardcore meditation, medical grade chi kung, very tough to get through, face yourself

You do.

But the horrific “in us”

For answers

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To live through that, what none of the politicians will face, what none of the soldiers will face, what none of the civilians will face, what no one will face.  In us.  Places.  The nattering mind, the negativity, the huge negativity, the mind spins, crashes in us – people can’t even stand minutes, let alone hours.  Find a way to make peace with their nattering mind, and get through to a better world, no sappy beauty queen platitudes no pretty “better day” but the uglified the repulsive in you, facing it, at last making peace in you.//place.  If only for yourself.  Can’t talk about it.  Even farther.  Install it in life.

For all of us.

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It’s very hard to encourage people in this, to look into meditation, to not be scared, to go the full route, the hardcore disciplined “oh c’mon eric!” yeah, I know, to even have the time, for 4 hours say in the morning “AH C’MON ERUC!!” YOU CRAZY!!” yeah I know people said worse .. but even have the time, inspiration, enough money to pay the heating bill, a quiet house, do it – oh, in younger years it was more physical exercise, now it’s the spiritual, but sort of swearing nasty in parts? Oops/ the true inside/ oops! double-oops! do some hoops/ do somersaults inside, if you ever can, if any of us ever can, in this world

Unknown

Inside, and this project, a lot of pages, much of this offline, never published to blog, like 95%, and how to weed through it all, how to pop around in it, like a land, inside, we’ve never seen – build it, for us all

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That’s to my brother really, he has some troubles “facing life” don’t we all “no methods” he’s out west there, I talk to him on the phone a bit, but you know, life is tough.  I too have temptations towards addictions.  But no, I don’t drink, I don’t take drugs.  I have nothing against a social drink, once in a while.  But you know, this world is overboard.  But as far as I know, he just drinks, I don’t know about drugs.  I think it’s just the alcohol.

But you know in the grocery aisles for me look at those muffins or the chocolate cake or Jos Louis or whatever it is – shitty food, sorry, but in moderation it’s not bad “but curing your problems” ah

So this book, the inside land, someone take a spot in it – not sure what it is, to orient themselves, know where they are – know what the whole book means, know what their whole life means, not be scared, even start, even do a “scratchy drawing” “not much skill” “or takes years, friendly to us” “we’re not scared, of the inside”

This way

Thanks eric we sketch maybe show some of them to other people. sell, trade, have gallery shows, for a whole community, that can’t say anything, whoops/ your inside, never heard of it, don’t have one “I assume I have one” “I guess I do” but hardcore meditators, that are kind to us, oh talk to them, or help them, be a welcoming crowd for them, in life, these strange beings

Ha

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You’re saying us

What it is is really us

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Meditation is gross filthy ah shit fuck you should see the landscapes in there or acidic uncontrollable vermin hell swashing overboard great waves of turmoil and hate – oops!

Soft oops.

To see, where we come from, oh, the origin, further in, as if the lock on the door is that hellish stuff, you can barely sit with for 30 seconds when it starts, but sit, sit patiently, while part of you is dying dying

Ah this is what I do, the ego, being burnt away or conceit for earth thinking you’re a body want things for your body, and what when, the eotu, edge of the universe, reads you, your troubled self, you need a “god” a “friend” casual in the war dirt filth no glory no patriotism of easy meditation

None

Or no meditation and cakes and booze and drugs and sex fuck off you all! well c’mon eric get through another day, facing your inside quietly, go the whole route, where the eotu reads you and you combine with the eotu, to produce the prayer being, out of you .. oh a little nameless invisible figure .. oh through 5,000 hours meditation, over 10,000 hours now, oh, you get used to things, you rise through levels.

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