ah black words white paper _______________ we who art 55 cents a page go through stacks art store weird obsession loser quaint fairytale value of paper note scrutinize sketch in old-time rocking chair general store cyborg bored or tiny component glow in gut any future person do anything I'm alone crazy who's the being the dominant being paper screen sense I'm a ghost out in outer computer sense what mealymouthed description leave book read reader self trust space ______________________ we pause hail hirruycame cst cyst try to undertstand, leave alone, come back to, maybe we need meditation to break our ego, leave earth, maybe we need that .. to fluster frtystrste/ frustrate spell daily coffee word sip practice with it supported in accessible i cant spell a thing in my mind extra from what everyone does be interesting n standard _____________________________ database im sxick of it buirt can do nothing otsble unstable obselete look at again creer / creek sail shop paper boat something in me never looked at ui never fiound my whole lifetime, as i lived supposedlyfundcyy functionally scceitsble accesible .. for whst? my sex my cock my oussy friom all this "oh I dint hsve time" or the world needs time you got time experienced crazy man meditator evened out shops in grocery store gets his things __________ ___________ __________ I need a "creer" career in this, to trust it, not on the radar for my schools universities society but not illegal mountain man with big guns, no, just a mountain of suburbia pile of salt or sweep kitchen floor mind .. I need to know I can work on the rest "the rest" no one sees, not religion, not science .. be wweird/ double weird ha like a fold of paper or fold of sheets in hotel room, my stasis stilly here on earth silly stillness my mind my true nature my gut inside far off huge warehouse beyond my body/ be competent, oh some little guy or girl weird alien not flesh just thought hark okay companion doubt of life .. ________ ah forget it or the cheese of damaged mild mind then made steel or melted pooscle poo pfrozen no winter mind thoughts griund spring grvel lt it meltfallen walk on, we all have things rushing by memories a sick moment it all overwhelms too many years too many things didn't make sense earth's logic .. see this too-long title of this blog post and feel some of it, with "answers" or someone dare show it like it is crazy meditation not monastery monk but failed pornography available sweaty person clean up as we all are ../ .. sicksuciety we are here and some quirky misspellings dioubt in helper ruined man 54, does okay, weird hope in daily meditation writing for this database/ writing for fit in, ponder, no time, make it worth it sell our drawings each of us and our talk we can't do, off to the side we live life career but off to the side .. oh it's okay to have off to the side legendary off to the side of meditation, anyone

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so, tiny words here, tiny thoughts, no one has confidence for this type of work, some drawings, just quirky

oh this drawing means "just forget it" for real meaningful deep meditation knowledge you get about the world and people and life, just forget about ever sharing it.  Ever having the ability.  The words.

And all of us join on it.

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oh all of us try have visions about being a sincere monk meditator, but then pretty girls or pretty guys or whatever you're into people click things on computer see cocks cunts sorry about the rudeness, or just go to the store see tubs of ice cream like newest flavours asphalt that's really creamy caramel or post-apocalyptic asphalt creamy caramel flavour - it's all so crazy and needless to say you don't stick to meditation

none of us do

oh i soldier through.  This is my life.

I keep meditating.  yeah.  With numerous lapses in judgement and lost days .. then pick it up again.  steady as it goes.  Realistically.  Monk out of the monastery, and never a monk.  yeah the pretty girls call.  Easily fucking accessible anonymous look at all the bodies and fuck up your life fuck up your chi nobody's watching well you are reader

thanks

i have responsibilities

this crazy trip

no drugs no alcohol just meditation, and an unbalanced mind, ha

can see

with this help

work

seer construction worker construction of words sweaty my skin is pasty white wait ah get out in the summer eric still time to straighten it out tanned has poor vocabulary drinks beer writes books gets to the heart of it or just mind-numbingly dumb intellirock falling highway closed off all flow from where eff you nocturnals raccoons fuckers not much difference

but don't insult, what is this

off world, take a trip spaceship divorced from reality married formwerly form-woprm-wiggle what oh at 14 i was okay or no then i chamnged been a lot of years

different, not coming back, came back

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so this oh society, walks the dog, the dog grywld st the sun grows up sees the sun grows wild gets tooclose melts ,loves the warm happy day ah questions it

where do we go

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and these pictures, take into a cube say "yeah I drew these" "been doing your meditation?" "yeah" as if on probation lived reality too much messed up world, arrested, or notated, asked gently, would you like to live this then, wanna try? "well lets hook you up to the database measure you where you stand"

for monthly stipend or disability ability unnoticed needed now for the world to function

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hidden

we just can't get it out what it needs for it to work

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extra not in human capability we have whole lifetime, can't, dry up resources, live years, can't add to the moment, this

so this is the writing I did with the pictures, that I put up today.  The following is other writing, I did before, just starting on post, or did this offline.  Thanks.

I looked at the first drawing, "we are all here, meditation, cheap, no special effects" it was by my side look at in the paper prayer, wrote this

prayers at players in board games brats from the 1950's what? anytime you're welvolume come along nuns nones laughter cheap pray for fortune to change any of us all of us

to not be mentally ill from just life stress show up

shave whatever it is male female face legs greet the world, with this in your opocket

ha no

other layer no time no fot/ footi nmouth? say crazy thing/ no support no sense in great book "I can say this!" begin to form impossible world, even clue in meditation that seems to help non-meditators too all work on this, stop in on this time in my day in space on the day

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so yeah, here's the writing from earlier today:

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oh one more pic, this says "3 day eviction notice California" it's just some phrase I saw on the internet.  I don't know this picture shows "show up" have scans or originals future world "but not me I can say nothing, uncreated unfound world in me.

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we all from a young age have uncreated unfound world in us it just happens nothing to do with evolution or aliens or anything, or maybe it does a little of all that, but we'll never know about it/ will we?/ ah hidden treasurebox we never got to open up other clues to life besides the 2 arms 2 legs being its culture and its mind all clothes boxes of packed away shirts drawers nature of miniature wood drawers trees not hurt share dollhouses elves imagination get us through another gone things memory play that gies along with it./sleep or wish/  mini/we all feel it.  But can't do it. / wake up/ walk/ in this/ We all are swept up and busy in the world without the real us.  You just don't piece it together.  Send me enough time with the other world.  whoKnow it.

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so here's the rest of the error writing. said it accidentally for all time Thanks.

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measure pictures authenticate pictures to go along with crazy book mess everything deals with it all the impossible mess accumulation of me inside unreadable unfathomable easy does it tiger don't puke

puke out a thousand years to unlidteing/ unlid-tioghtentenin? unlistening psychistrust or fryend, hdve livelihood career in this front lawn sunny days don't look careful for enemies just walk out

done stupid too long words go on and on I never had the 10 hours I could sustain this for any reason "life" too long intellectual book

i kind of hdve time in misplsced life

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we dent silly punctuation symbolize break difference my mind my boring words my boring company no money even if I had it I wouldn't pay you to listen to me, will you sit with me, just me, each of us ask, me inside I could never form I think I've formed it will you be patient with me not laugh at me, sit with me, off a ways steal the book from me or odd arrangement internet skills I give this here then work this up/ where are we all, I ask you, where are we all, inside/ on all pictures made all photos all sights in life our eyes supposedly see

dent

take me farther

in there, I do not know

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We all .. oh I don’t know make pictures sloppy or hold very simple distances measurements in addition to how we talk, are afraid to talk.

Off-planet not TV show or streaming internet service great big budget science flies fiction paper airplanes, and us, just in us, in life, stodgy us

What is it, meditation, ruined life, or eotu read you “eh-O-what?” and off-planet or further than god belief fill in dirty clothes dirty underwear no I’m not too bad spit on my cock last night in bed masturbated says anyone remembered girls who lied purportedly good people I just walked away then, they are in a couple looking .. I don’t understand, world’s ambiguities, failures, lies, I just accept walk away meditate, disrespect chi, try to arrive at acceptance calm day, exercise be nice have purpose

In measured drawings original take ruler scan, highly accurate digital, or see me, talk, shaky

Produce system,. Measure me, inside, for goodness, past it all

We don’t even know

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Ah in any case I should just shut up, there are limits, my name is on this blog, you know how it goes, employers, police, internet, philosophers, corner store operators, keeping their eye on me, ha – you ever listened to people’s conversations surreptitiously recorded, they’re pretty hard to make out, there’s a lot of uhs and unidentifiable words, some people say “like” “like this, like uh” make a note “if you ever suspect to be surreptitiously recorded” ha, and turn music down, and ask people to quiet down, nearby conversations, and all of us clear surveillance on our minds what little we can give

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Ah like say it need be blog without your name on it, even then what are we saying people look at drawings dip into a 100,000 page book, database, of what crazy meditation serious as much as 11 hours a day of meditation, writing, at least 5 hours was meditation, serious chi kung, medical grade, hurts, is troublesome .. to see these things

What things

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Ah society joining on what they can’t, organize, mind, behind meditation, not shaky

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We really don’t need beings going through walls, what is our place, now, past TV shows

Our place shaky mind, removes you from life, meditation, ever present other world needed careful nice not abusive “just not from here” ever present it, alongside “world from here” “be what you are” “human”

Oh, don’t be freaky, but just be regular, okay?

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now that’s impossible you can write here play here but you know what it’s like in life “I know what I’m allowed, conversation see my face get a phone call get a text we are allowed certain things not this .. even here eric named blog get away with it anonymous small no one sees this test it be aware no one says this in regular conversation

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We don’t advance

Wherever we are going

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Ciompodiote cimprtehendive altruistic

Oh could you speoll thst better all our minds the workd

Cmposdite cmorehensive altruysrtuc/ composite comprehensive altruistic/ I sketch at it can’t say a thing show up in a cubicle measure me for inside can’t say as thig

Woyld lscking insude

Guve me

Measure your otoginals faltering clumdy my kid could do that maybe they could but the meditation behind it thousands of hours new carreer my inside I don’t hdve

And can’t say

Misspelled thousands of jours thousands of hours sttempts life inside the nattering yiuy encounter honest meditation but I don’t have time I have a job a career I don’t have time for the world all going wrong from inside /language my physical appearance, matter the appearance of matter, the substance so named even our thoughts seem of it glued to physical surroundingssomething is heavily missing the edge of the universe, come here conjure out of mithing missing nothing is something wide wore out breathe skinny acceptable appearance into this plod oblong line verywruiring here, sketch that last mispellerd go the government or private cubicle roo me hop for inside for earth measure carry baby you your work at last desperastely needed/and pther people make acceptable matter out of it, skeych lousy scratchy AND THERM or can thery, furthet into “or thiouyghrts made it” “ not the edge of thr universe” or it isd here I line it up cam thik the eiotu edge if the universe past gid or incrprstig gud dtsbelief belief firther int nasty cranky whole thig tired swasety drawing and medustuiiong abnd fasiling fur inside commin/ PLEASE!! Stop misspelling/ respell that last sentence/ disbelief belief further into nasty cranky whole thing tired sweaty drawing and meditating and failing for inside common/ coming to earth or through us or ugly flaky no-mind blown-mind not society acceptable nirmal scsred ti saym named blog named oerson in the futureflesh of words hovering there touch talk about not drunk high/ can’t/ won’t appear as that ever another human to see me, no/ I go on with it as it is/ is this comprehensive, eric, is there much more? text computer isore I saw me untrued unfirmed

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All

Join

To express

A page draw unskilled jate art am not part of art worldClumsily

Hate, love/ try sopirtuality so appear appreciate good people a few or are they close-mud-walk-ended tyo alien s watch ing eutu watching meditation deep morte crazy petite mortified? Settle down here, house, no gut only one to exit.  See.  /Try the tiny parts here millions of people tiny parts of world tired after it all religion science opportunity aisles of store, lower head look at floor buy what you need don’t think hidden I survived tiodisplay this what is this/papers media small no hadline good picture absolute pish media phot graophics or none for me inside just thisd and meditation thousands of hours cannot say helpers from non-meditators and meditators alike/ tired/ for inside location common bond we don’t have, say avoid be careful, hold it close to the vest build the impossible, and shuddup

Scurry slurry of white swesrt black ytarts asphalt sugary trust look sround furtuveky

Do this over years

People push look

Confident don’t see ciofuident/ co I interest you look at you fidgetngky hiding your inwsyde just like me they need

We all tired eyes skip focus blame dirtch another one ditch me too another one gone read give up on habit disregard no one can say close all develop help him non-writers writers people walk the face of the earth apocaplypser glimpse bad writing like me ha before ye real apocalyspse

Ah messed up writing give it diouble space a bit of soace to breath ah odd read some of shit present dat bmot seep go back don’t have time

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