I am here
writing, a room, quite a mess, or reflecting life on earth .. I don't shit on the floor, I don't have pets, stink of urine, no .. but I am a mess .. writing this .. calm of 3 hours 4 hours meditation
living, breathing, other creature
not romantic comedy, not porn - life does something different this time
be real - tired - no one ever made that more than a buzzword
credit cards, or gift cards, don't have a credit card / for real, buy materials, give up .. some word, plastered on my face "charge card" best words, transcendent / .. occasionally I buy something from the internet .. these cards here are from years .. what do they really mean, this context .. as tired grinning face is not me cartoon sad
what did you catch there, it goes by
sick, and catch clear sane a little bit extra to these days
what did you do today, read this, for no one in your life says this - not in mine either - but this is peculiar tired of art tired of book
it is this/ no bubble of protect city plexiglas nothing we are read in safe
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what do I buy? oh sometimes "pre-workout booster" a vegan type, it's on sale, sometimes during the year .. save quite a bit .. order a few bottles .. I don't buy much .. luckily I've avoided "trying to be happy" "by going above my means" .. read in safe .. ever protect best words insane a bit not edited by company
I meditate
publish here, into life
as in here/ was never a here, trustable fort pleasure clearing deep love in no concrete rings left with notes in plastic bags forest
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what am I like to live with? oh, I haven't had a girlfriend in a few years "how do I communicate" I got sad, just the sex, paying attention to sex/ when would I get some, don't say that .. instead ventured to this, to get this /, but not really/ so easy/ alive / as of course from grow up see linger for what words never said no world we know child discuss in language used /sigh-brr-cold beings - have house, buy things, as grow to be mature
I needed/ some nice people may have hinted "why life" I heard .. this
as a little here
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you know? / we are family of doubts wishes practical as this, got it / farther, of minds / and don't call me minds superdozeandwakecomputer / can't do in person - we never do
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as life hints world communication as this fumble crushed hope save words for later crushed lunch bun not too bad
"no, I can't say that" as brat-easy youme of kindness like floppy no dog to walk, big dog - of no thought, no thought known to run free get leaps earth .. produces little smiling faces - no known technological update - it's just not that / as earth confided it wanted something big from its thought
we mess mosey along - content not to do it the same - not feeling we're lacking - or weak on that thought - ha - building
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we love like and lose time of "world efferkaput" strain and anxiety, sometimes we lie in bed and bundle up - but we are no better
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as worse "can't stand it" many days
oh, some better, earth is warmth of blankets, cuddle, talk to yourself in brazen is night and day not show-off with yourself look at pure no intelligent language
long wear-in meditation course of words walk to work here time real life, very bad bumps, survive as mind no-call mind was real in pain
me letter long letter too much of this style as reach kaput wires hold as not live wires hands no schemata dream language of better shh-sigh-brr-product
think tank fall say made toy call pandemic-awkward toys of us speak better than producers we lacked job as that, sad we are barely toys sick-attached to humans bettered as education fling full no ever want stinking hard times toy, speak new as never call me advanced taxes hurt me being of not construct awkward be this on the way this page streets lonely out world no-find corner ogle internet for minumu flow-away mind bird playtoy is nature of my mind can't do a thing
finds flight here leaps from small box hold my weight of invisible try this space as commuter computer line afforded
