Thursday, 24 June 2021

growing up to grow up in mind not here look to space not even space

 

do we have anything in us, lightly surrounded by crumbling pastry


ha




oh, ogres, ooogly-eyes, kiss, love, like a woman to the best man of her life or accompanying to man no there just crumbling pastry .. nothing there .. draw it .. drawing says "want to go outside my mess scribble not even my mind" anyone fill in "can't read"

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we all in our huge stores .. need no paint .. need no vacuum cleaner


ask someone

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faint helpful won't chew your eyes out

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will be shocked "say the weird words"


ever

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in the passion silence weird words express nothing silent corner right in the open of the world


store






Friday, 5 March 2021

the interaction not known - words crummy book - hero no more, of words

 

why then, cannot say certain words - don't come to mind - augment me fairly, as "never going to say"




when is carry computer equipment of no carry at all of no short note I worked I suffered in isolation I came together to say something I cannot say


dirty note .. from someone you know .. plain not sexual .. just "couldn't you do better?" or "glad to hear from you" little things, across distance, of human not understand human, or gloriously in strange language


when


are you going to do that


"take me out on a date, of words, you can't use, will never use in your life" she says .. filter through make coffee of crap mind is a bare beans grinded make awful addictive drink or speak straight and clean water just water at him is she kicking to attack finished or crunch toast be alone home alone without words exercising no communication ew-are you ever/ world stay away, I am not riderude in harrumph communicate/ don't want a sweet drink just tap water I trust thanks/ be away from men, she thinks .. be at eat an hour ago of food some nutrients base level stay alive body no extras happy to be there this say poky with this ew-writing too, get a beer mug of water, put on stove in kitchen, do burpees routine, first back-saving exercises, then a good scheduled warmup, then burpees, recommended from marine soldier, /we are all/on internet, just plain, no fluff, tough, and his recommended stretching afterwards


trust no /internet/world, /date/and some, to say - what?


now?  augmented poor flavour, no part of fine sad-advertised lie to me company of food-yllls yells I always get I like them no now way tell then covid keeps me honour home/ food of "oh I like to it u-y you why"


sad at paunch paucity, not enough of something say to ill consuytime sway okay sit redread now embarrassed in these to me's I am many me's .. years mess .. of just world be floating through air not virus you breathe see better decide to say, not strong a lashing out be see deplete any energy now


give grow me pumunder light of sad contained safe me am I here where is here to say some


sit sat at tryble trouble me the on the table no odd video and everything


saying all that, somehow


clean drinking water words


when show spread of land head tilted back videos deplete my chi king meditation energy .. need to not take sexy like cocaine goes to my genitals need to save and ponder, back and forth, able to/ topnotch gone wasted am okay .. veritable tableau no one wants read, a wanted it-law of stay legal and just hunker down get better "it" of human definition, all of us, hard to stomach realize that/ weird call a caution-king good




the day's words say "the ugly harsh reality.  do poets train in knife fighting?  somehow I don't think so."  of life, harshest training in give terminating a d-halo shallow life my own and living husk of life risk no knife me in words no, accepted gentleness goes somewhere nowhere yes a lot now and then catch me saying this never, beauty de-free-rewrite as real talk you can say, please don't bring a knife .. in a parking lot, grown men and women groups and armies of park cars put on covid mask walk alone go in get food, it's that nirmal get out fast/ never soell irmalsay/ soil fighting, over serene words they cannot say - too pose pretty roll me along cart wheels grocery store limit sanguine danger so consider choose words in what world sucky vomit won't break smart bread just be fast enter eat terse poetic nightmareie nuance I'll ever try say slim no extra nothing there spot-on-me-comlanguagepute-modify these years go rentalk mind say stay rental this grunt in bed as reality now these ones are them, top of too due-say-nice-things-dumb peanut butter is still food, and jam, strawberry jam, sometimes a treat .. necessary bullish butter me jar jam jar new so older please don't buy me car come alone walk for world.


she waits for unabashed sleazy then smart adorned world words of that mistake fancy.


that blumble pull say say anything like this.


when you show up.


in her life.


she already knows you.

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any of us, no rough word train, no pompous gumption of computer be my side ally, in this world, meditation, as story, suffer, scribble at drawings, be in a house, stay safe, of communicate lost anonymous get off the couch of stare TV lush wait of covid is not good enough .. touch me - but that was the "gringe grittyoverall feeling" "no arriving" words it was always there, never there, as tally up rude, just enough, slip pig words into me as talk glare subside into order gas more in car go to station occasionally warm bed you eat food of lie alone content ate early enough do sleep hygiene sleep good


some was


mistake tether words be private yuck abomination better tender add up covid times reconsider if pay take-out ersatz words sallyrose okay none buckets blocks can unlimited of chili crack can open of need touch flesh of first say "okay it's been a long time" since talk, any was done, this way, never, okay slow interpret .. any .. to it


found wordworld win a talk


words plump push, I wish world apologize store extemporary unimportant someone said fun as alone brittle brave battle touched serene scarred hillside of smooth what's her inner won't say from screen scared to say awards show to me this much me and you in that camgirl site car lost lot find as exit store furtive ever most snow brushed off windshields still selling trying to make my way live life


abandon too much easy see young girls exposed, not my place, take fast shortcut, tip tokens, get groceries dull average barest no selling find in rewerp reword deer-p-in-toilet nature lost no-find internet move about social no degree hashtag nothing I really want to find


bleary found accident words say as form many years still accident writing skill at fresh new no human has honestly need some don't know what to call it get a good oink go through again see others as not rash intercourse need to be me


so bad to live honourable no one section and then I'm so terrible cute use you all other time sections to our marriage of politics purse lips kiss world time hours plates wrapped taker-out scar to me arrive strategic rife phone pose order to my head .. low hear need companymind never get through to other minds we'll cake very occasionally need brown wholegrain rice and raw broccoli baby carrots raw, a meal of no fancy just eat me as some soy sauce on rice and some what to drink .. it's all toboggan hours still on flat ground .. be okay ../, / we wept/ no cry/water, /get from fridge/ plain/apple juice/ surviving refreshing/ just leave me alone make a story to me this avoid compiossibplex road drive and fun be all over the place dungy you re-entertaining slop professional deducement know how go-odd it is, try, meter my angel .. mere strip too drive park crunch know me call me in short time life to say any like this go on shop never do there unidentified satisfy smaller wiggle to be warm in bed alone of this even with others fast life this level what I want from empty drifting around words to no being I ever met, all of you, augment now, found one suitable, property, not for sale, minds, y-teetewrthink this no identified made world progress wasn't asking


words we are done


good to do a walk mechanics this to you today to the cheerful way disparate coffee-air-pollute-drink-me as we all are comshownothingplex words


good to date as no body here to see as no walk born as a baby of all of us some older age never do this quite miracle to computers anything





Tuesday, 19 January 2021

have you ever seen such odd words, travel with don't know at all what they mean, out of the place, but they get you

 

out of the place, travel as read very quietly .. as not believe in "super strange story" with what as no talk of, another thing no talk of .. gleefully read it full




very stark I don't want to see it beat up on street peeled from subway guck walk trail cares bush forest mind "as clean" little some of us words allow barely travel essence of existence no ticket read very carefully move very fast slow through it exit what has steel handcuffs on you, nods to this, only thing


woke a bastard cat on rail of sky words say "love when it's all over, you're depressed, find a way, curtains closed, peek out, smile" as move radical unmeaning finds tiniest beat down mind sick and collapsed rises breathes you're okay here no place found map of you hitchhiking easygoing slower shaking in mental home years lightbulb dangling from long cord yellowwalls brand name sore in its exercise no dim domain holding up used to be white pain painted mind emerge is okay to anyone to say salad way out coffee this, man sipping says


drive these cars


find these cars


words as down the street all windows shun shut


open as oddest thing to say mind in person does shopping in store hears none oof of this


plain sky barn is blue floating horsies throat is wigging across bleat sky demarcated to set apart my note to you anyone hear in world we have deconstructed maximum, and save shout and be arrested no sail now where who listens forms with you world of notes have no database no social network


aren't heard easily read





Sunday, 11 October 2020

sad display no highway in the dirt hot rolling RV if will do friends go off in this book has arms world has wheels mini in have earth grounds arrive drive throw set mouth seeds dust dirt no seeds it is my local loco words

 

no save me long book cover lie in bed half off supporting mattress room boxes things sent for pick inside of mouth scrape skin in nerves flick on wall


news show on that


no




confuse confabulate bus ride mind in house waits


shoes dirt floor plain floor okay


person walks in legible outline ghost pencil in store


people watch shoes, just walking


a person walks up, taps figure on shoulder


ever


okay, dimension allows sliding not TV gaps in it happening


need you "so right to be here" ever plausible worked years is not a pose it in limited employment poem in gnarly unallowable reality happening


I see you have become that slightly


"poems" never born, were born more steadfastly


extra ingredients no one ever alive can create of themselves walk in these shoes pencil outline go out of house make something happen to world is wisdom not books not enough







Saturday, 1 August 2020

so many tries confused bus light rail get somewhere technology rough ragged packsack no show am doing okay just don't bother me


when get home, join no known give-me-coimoanion companion of electronics out there waves rivers walk pathways needed separate no repeated electronics go as hype go-story we dream

any
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shock mess city, all eyes looking for .. no known created by human, with help, where, why

don't say, as smile a little




words say "some words of book you could say - some words"

any these times, book become companion of wear off on people, acquire new traits

girl looks "anyone claiming to be" "the database" her name is "quizzklung-a-date-for-happy" never deal
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more mess city .. the give-me-coimoanion database, people trying to long-time abstract attract with vestiges of the book, their own




words say "hug me" no, no room "no way crazy confused" no doesn't say "at our best or fake or hug me my eyes are darting" no, no words there

she sits and cries
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for world see her, no known filming no intrusive, but see her
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and she gets a date

for that
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quizzklung manages honesty never seen for a world, we all do - huge mountains of dasta-fastardly-fun-clean-trustable data book rag is cleaning rag on no known next text of yard fence corral books snorting pigs let loose walk deals then worst state of see the good to it add up to "you can't see me" "for anything" "for this"











Tuesday, 26 May 2020

untreatable illness and world can't see its illness


have you threw your hands up in the air then say it a different way / in stress / you are right in the stress / you can't say it a different way / all the magic of the world / terse practical / people kind of willow spring birch oak jack pine wander with me walk in park / can I say these words / want things to run smoothly, they don't, who's a friend, be there, down dark corridors

what did I just say there

nothing

as are you cogent, have your wits about you, that way

ever worst practice worst workout


ha - what's this picture? - just me feeling of expired best before dates on gum packages, were under mess of piles of paper on kitchen counter

that's how world lives, extract us, be food, a healthy meal, not gum / where I live

in mind low achieve "advice from me" we all sit glum no office to wait in, ever

no worst practice, no worst workout, at home mind bothered fried latest earth pushed to the edge, not from drugs .. just not well .. peace .. in chi kung meditation .. still not well all the time .. cutting the lawn, on a hot day, ah, stress, even though take a natural remedy for allergies to cut grass .. but feel a little "crazed of rush bothered traffic in all continents cities" get through it, no interruptions, do it .. the lawn of books no grow our sense be a little over the top exhausted stunned
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where pages I do with no lawnmower, ha

grow quiet

I need you like that

so a day/ where book of that, I'm no hero/ of books no written pandemic years after years through exist a kindness strangers don't see to each other .. further .. I would like a world like that .. we are better people no sucks as be beastly insult .. see powers of to see .. lawn that isn't growing like mad, and is a book .. tend to .. oscillate in and out, find the murk .. database .. eyes .. of trust modern just be some "no, I ever don't jump have the no great thing to say here during that"

I don't here .. and here







Saturday, 9 May 2020

be nice to each other, for precious little writing, you can't hear - time .. to hear .. senses .. of sad, have time, ever something - not beat up yourself - ever wait, for senses to kick in, of this


I am here

writing, a room, quite a mess, or reflecting life on earth .. I don't shit on the floor, I don't have pets, stink of urine, no .. but I am a mess .. writing this .. calm of 3 hours 4 hours meditation

living, breathing, other creature

not romantic comedy, not porn - life does something different this time

be real - tired - no one ever made that more than a buzzword


credit cards, or gift cards, don't have a credit card / for real, buy materials, give up .. some word, plastered on my face "charge card" best words, transcendent / .. occasionally I buy something from the internet .. these cards here are from years .. what do they really mean, this context .. as tired grinning face is not me cartoon sad

what did you catch there, it goes by

sick, and catch clear sane a little bit extra to these days

what did you do today, read this, for no one in your life says this - not in mine either - but this is peculiar tired of art tired of book

it is this/ no bubble of protect city plexiglas nothing we are read in safe
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what do I buy? oh sometimes "pre-workout booster" a vegan type, it's on sale, sometimes during the year .. save quite a bit .. order a few bottles .. I don't buy much .. luckily I've avoided "trying to be happy" "by going above my means" .. read in safe .. ever protect best words insane a bit not edited by company

I meditate

publish here, into life

as in here/ was never a here, trustable fort pleasure clearing deep love in no concrete rings left with notes in plastic bags forest
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what am I like to live with? oh, I haven't had a girlfriend in a few years "how do I communicate" I got sad, just the sex, paying attention to sex/ when would I get some, don't say that .. instead ventured to this, to get this /, but not really/ so easy/ alive / as of course from grow up see linger for what words never said no world we know child discuss in language used /sigh-brr-cold beings - have house, buy things, as grow to be mature

I needed/ some nice people may have hinted "why life" I heard .. this

as a little here
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you know? / we are family of doubts wishes practical as this, got it / farther, of minds / and don't call me minds superdozeandwakecomputer / can't do in person - we never do
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as life hints world communication as this fumble crushed hope save words for later crushed lunch bun not too bad


"no, I can't say that" as brat-easy youme of kindness like floppy no dog to walk, big dog - of no thought, no thought known to run free get leaps earth .. produces little smiling faces - no known technological update - it's just not that / as earth confided it wanted something big from its thought

we mess mosey along - content not to do it the same - not feeling we're lacking - or weak on that thought - ha - building
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we love like and lose time of "world efferkaput" strain and anxiety, sometimes we lie in bed and bundle up - but we are no better
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as worse "can't stand it" many days

oh, some better, earth is warmth of blankets, cuddle, talk to yourself in brazen is night and day not show-off with yourself look at pure no intelligent language

long wear-in meditation course of words walk to work here time real life, very bad bumps, survive as mind no-call mind was real in pain

me letter long letter too much of this style as reach kaput wires hold as not live wires hands no schemata dream language of better shh-sigh-brr-product

think tank fall say made toy call pandemic-awkward toys of us speak better than producers we lacked job as that, sad we are barely toys sick-attached to humans bettered as education fling full no ever want stinking hard times toy, speak new as never call me advanced taxes hurt me being of not construct awkward be this on the way this page streets lonely out world no-find corner ogle internet for minumu flow-away mind bird playtoy is nature of my mind can't do a thing

finds flight here leaps from small box hold my weight of invisible try this space as commuter computer line afforded