lakxz-a-a la le la uh lots of fun no not all the time, sit down to meditation, face your worries, face other peoples in mindbeam, sympathy, join hands, love, minds, souls, slippers sit in pjs sit in sweatpants meditate

So tonight I did a little meditation.  This is what I wrote.

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9:35 pm

It is good to do a meditation.  It is painful.  You “don’t want to go there.”  You resist.  You sit through it.

But in the end, you are better.  A little.

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It is the only way.

There is no other way.

For you.

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In it tonight I saw Samantha the girl from the jail cell.  She wanted to draw.

I also saw Shae.  She wanted to draw.

To be loved, to be able to meditate, and to be able to paint pretty pictures and sell them for a good price so you can keep living.

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Oh, in each little painting I may do, instruct Samantha, even though I will never meet her.  Only over the praying airwaves.  /When you can convince yourself of that it is quite beautiful.  It transcends.  Your mealy-mouthed miserable complaining, it is quite beautiful.

And I was surprised Shae wants to be an artist, she doesn’t know how but she wants me to teach her, she wants to be in “not a commune” “but loved” “peaceful” “meditate” “do art” be monogamous, true, meditate, do art .. and be sexy bookish, sexy dignified, sexy maturity.

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/endf’ snippet/ 9:45 pm

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This is the way to make the feelings can be transmitted into art and people enjoy.

If you were ever wondering, stuck, like in a jail cell can’t think like an artist can’t think pretty, Samantha in there for drugs, taking drugs, selling drugs, she doesn’t know how to think pretty and peaceful. 

She can do it this way.

And Shae and her girl friends, they are sex starved but want dignity a change to even if you have or haven’t, but gorging, having no dignity./ they are sick of themselves know no route to the top of that climb out of porn it seeps in everywhere, into some dignity.

But still sex.

Love.

A big question mark.

They don’t even know what it is.

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Are still searching unable to sit still concentrate on this whatever this is.

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Beauty in meditation going through hard journey to come out on other side you don’t even know what it is “my mind couldn’t think that”

Beauty werj.

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Diregedurty prcess

So this is whst I walk round as, somewhere in there, unsire in reality.

Somewjere in there.

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/endf’ snippet/ 9:55 pm

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Oh, end of that little writing there, offline, in “the long book,” ah we all have a long book for many years lived.  Ever get to say it to anyone? no not really.  you might happen upon an odd situation allows you to.  any of us could.  But meditation “the person grumpy human doesn’t want to change” “but has to agree to go into meditation in order to change”