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ah years later student just high school art didn't hand in all projects did well on ones he did, / ah life .. it carries on, you know? sure, you didn't get to the depths you wanted to, was it art? big paintings, 8 feet long? or was it you? and all those around you? meeting for sly dinner parties, never aboveboard, people just in waiting for the sly, never anything else./ gret idd/ grt thefyck off fint tiouch thst it's nit art its sasd preserved sucduence i, sick dense desd lret mewalk in the snow
so i had the flu here as buit the past fewdays, well it almost caught hold, I did meditation, took cold fux (whst?! ha ha, just a pill) .. so here'ssomewrutig, takes up from last post. bye.
sweet nothing, turn on a handle right on, go in and botch turn left no big orange tan fret just keep honking moving white black font flow of words paper other lineage of police peace burgers life tofu i have to snot the life i built while i was somewhere else mortified blement cement blemish cultural klieg brightness satire connect push hey say and dog pasty popco no list of friend run away corpuscle round bag of snoot feel hands available to sweat not floating in the air punctured for butter live crazy no-drug just tin-box mind gravelrattle but i have this to gagog present whilst harbouring fugitive of poultice ems some kind of mustard stew kicked out ha ha
we all just have ramshackle houses pretty law ons feel of lyig hic spaces nithig twirl else i can do i run away past night and morning betting on me to fly, get out shut up there, every scatter all this on the rise uasdn yiou has been there
hry i wrute .. so here's someeritig regulasr boook i figure hirda thisgives a good taste this book in a vix left in aroom moived out died my any junk auntie/ anticlimax .. we all tiddle on teeter switches ball bearings games shiutes we hsve nonsense language I know enough nonpesemse risk not go too fastr go sweet river burnerbsrruer diunt be ryde nassty take it swup out eet over last bsrrier into whsty is marrier furm test icyle cici nut send braze esre-why prayer bruisr vkjean file spend too much make eat art words step of chunks buildin material ryck tip thesacle grt anythig dione on this .. rocks tiumbling mealy mouth no one will listen a fruend we make art grest art in here hidden corner, who hsas much ti say, local humsn, we walk, just get gryuceries, like anyione, none of this
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as the title "little words, floating, ting, touch one, bring it down" rain, touch all this, as if you need a hook, to bring in rain, you don't, it just falls, sadness, on you, wasted life, no not at all, know the lengths of meditation, how far it goes, into this .. words on strings, spelled as "nasty" as this, don't need to explain to anyone, we've all seen them, sitting alone, as we all are, always/ you spit some of this out, angry, or don't do this on the walls at an art show, held in anger spit dropping blood fight, come with me, sit with me I'm not as weird as the rest, my weird past normal is cubbyhole not weird dangerous we find a way weird safe but exciting gets constructive things done
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So here we are, I managed to get in a 1+1, it was getting late, to get in my one sit-down for the day, did the magnification this morning, worked during it, on blog, on writing/ oh, is it really a “blog” well, “gets my writing-” to being in the open there .. well .. hmm, I’m not sure if I like it, and all this “about coming in on any page, any small bit of words, anywhere in 80,000 pages,” and “knowing what it’s about” /well .. oh, you stay calm, don’t panic, it’s easy to panic .. oh, in meditation, my abdomen was locked up tonight, be kind to it, be kind to you, after all, you are imagined, let the thing that imagined you, (made you into matter, which to it, is not what it is composed of, it is composed of nothing, or nothing we know of, we do not reach the edge of the universe and see it then, see what it is composed of, no/ we are proud to be matter, hard to give up on that, hard to see anything/give up on a lot of things, human existence, even something like cancer, fee hey uoialways believe/ disyseasses, thefresr words are as threy are too/ but with cancer“this is it’ nit asble ti see anything else, ebven through this meditation, lots of people asre likethst “they cannit sispenddtsbelief” or whstever you call it,cannot veer away, see thre imaginer of us sometimes absolutely uninrersted in us/ be as it, “it doesn’t mstter’) ask you, coyld yiou imsgine me too, in yiur workd, thst yiou think is solid – can you find me a place? Fittig? To me, that is niot real, or noone ever seen this like this him her or it .. no face, no visable face loinds biceps humsm recingiuzed furm friend fir nithig get away in the humsn “spectsculsr” so I dyd 3 hours 55 minutes of msgnifucstion, by thetime I closed pff completely in it, I remember getting quite a charge, the entity wasquiiote “vilpefeffentolent” ast chsrgig me uo, “friendly violent” csreful nit tio exceed humsnm violet purplo capasbilities plow, guve me achasrge hotse of electricity and chi, just about biowl me over, stipylateore it, seal offcompletely, slap diwn, rub, champlamp , touch switch, bed ines, then waur half hour, st least, thenest .. oh, lijfe, tonight adter closing off,. completely, I danced in the dsrk, felt me, it, “it thst is not real” “until humsn sees it” “but it gave us chance to bring it here things for it to see” “now we guve it itself to wrap arms around see” hiw we grid lids .. but it took me 1 hour 35 minutes tonight, at fyrest sittig duwn, yiu scan through, thsttakesa little more time, then body of work, usually takes 1 hour 10 minutes, but then dance “forget your worries” you would not normally dance fool winkl;e “be it” “it would woodiefamce” doesnt kniwwhst you are talkig sboiyr “you wouldnit usually dance at all liar” no ! – dance damn you! Swar dany,. Feel dandyyoiurself., feel your bum, rinhands over iot oh nice and plumpfeel all over – besexy – it is okay. No one iswastchig. You will be fine. In thedark, any camerasin the wall canot see, whst if they’re infrsred or night vusion or something/ oh, vcameras? I duidnikt kniow? Ash, nit so fsr0-fetched, but I dont think theyreally csresio mich, I am a “hsadbeen” by now, “hereally is nuts, he has no fry on fishends’ “he’;s nit a plsnted Soviet sgent” life gies on, I do my little work, quietly, unnoticed, feel people this sway biffented all on way, nany eescritch eoracles I feel oksy.
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/endf’ snippet/ 1:10 am
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Wednesday, January 16, 2013 2:55 pm
Life. I did a 2+2, plus with 1 hour 21 minutes of magnification to begin with, and I drew a little in magnification, took some papers out of box, plastic boxes, semi-“toy” filing cabinet, cute translucent blue clear had it for years maybe I described it feggeremnt/different i esrluer .. oh life wechange, we are imsgined, mstter, by something itthst is nit matter – it comes here, can U ne please by like yiou too, but in somewaykeep me as bldashy gressaz?
So this is life. I did 3 hours 23 minutes in total, with magnification. It feels good, feels calm, I have got past masturbation to girls on the internet/ oh, I seem to find this more interesting .. I do look at stuff though .. you punch in “sex” on the search engine, for images, surprisingly little for naked bodies, it seems more demure, even with “safe search off” or whatever it is .. strange that, “sex” almost seems to mean a loving couple in a committed relationship, hugging, playing, clothed, toying with each other, teasing, loving, good wholesome images le zip .. life .. to move on .. the energy no longer so come aloingfised sed confused, me no longer so vomnfused .. move on.
/it’s nicwe, ti hsve a little moreti think about, besides earth, me so hurt, me so want love, cheap love, cheap replacement, no no moreDevelop. Yes yes go
We can yes yes go all of us
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So it’s very powerful, being able to know I am imagined, made up, I still respect my life, respect other’s life, and they say “well you can’t get the mind of God” but it’s nice to get flickers, zooming, sometimes staying, oh, a loose bridge, a loose framework, hum hum .. so, to take in a curious God through the belly button, initially silver white energy, oh, just around us, visiting, but we don’t see it., hum hum, generally, nice to take it in, it visits, from regularly staying at a border, you look at a sky, typically, wonder what is there .. but in this it visits, comes across the border .. ho hum .. the way, it makes matter, and we think, are aware, can we make it, in this context, realize sadly we are imagined, then realize gladly we can help it .. very strange to build this far, take it in, have the feelings, repeated, so you can adjust, feel them again, include them in your repertoire ..
It takes years.
I am glad I did this.
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Oh the five planets I enjoy visiting them, giving them, the nameless or God whatever you want to call it, oh, it creates planets, could give us a billion more to look at through telescopes, electriimsges baked fudgshe, ha ha, he keeps us busy, we think it is real, but you know you can join in, imagine planets, for him, to come over the border, make his strange energy available, for him to come here, come through us, make a being, strange floating words, not matter?, is matter? up in the air, literally, independent, sound stops, or something stops, in midair, our impression of life, our impression of “everything,” so that is nice, oh yeah cute come along but 5 planets I like offering nameless joe george sarah butiiimnie, anyways .. offering her a planet, meet there, she likes it, likes becoming wood, I recognize it, trees, forest, she says yes my “impossible” energy, let it be separated into this, be sort of this in sort of matter and we continue on
La la
Oh you can do this meditation too, it is mentioned, I mean it is work, find a class if they still have them, and this of course is my personal story a lot of it, you will have one too la la loola skip along with me ..
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/endf’ snippet/ 3:25 pm
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Oh words, scratchy, scratchy around them, not hen picking, scratching at dirt with its claws, ah unless it has pens on its claws, and slows down, to be sophisticated in some strokes ..
Words, how they feel (oh paste a few on a sheet, have printed out some larger than reading page ones, not ((too much bigger, ah, 18 point? I don’t know.)) ((not too))too many lines, ah to snip out with scissors no exact shape ((get 1 word /two words at a time, ah this is experimenting, takes years do you have an interest in this, how things float, are not matter (((as “all things are made of matter” we are made of matter, an object is made of matter, all is matter .. but of course, that which is outside of matter, not matter, we cannot see, cannot realize .. why worry .. chuckle .. it seems to be .. why grasp what we completely are .. why ../ why push that far for the truth, where it then appears all our thoughts, our face, are not even here at all .. then it becomes scary .. in meditation you might be struck with fear, gulp, you might have trouble steadying your breathing ../ soon though the matrix crashes back in and you forget about all this .. it might come up later, not the next session, not next 10 sessions, but you stick to it, you might .. there is much to see, although nothing, of matter, are thoughts matter too .. it is very strange, to slow it down, not care, be as if a being, having a coffee, an apple juice, not caring .. looking at us “made you” clear throat, stare off somewhere))), a being that is not matter .. we have dressers, we have faces, /people, inanimate objects, both “they seem to be there” “they are there” oh hahacguckle, we don’t make waves, what else is there, that made matter, then turned away, (((why did it turn away, see touches in here, it turned away, because we needed to be built, needed to be left alone “otherstakecsreof it” “mansgers” theenergy without mstter isso perfect and glowing .. but cannot live here ..))) or always hovers near, (((it is there for the taking in meditation, the loving))) but doesn’t seem to know us, made all thesefsntastuc thigs, takes no credit, wastches us, “try to unlock their secrets” we get a little ../ spots, of a higher mind azooming then leaving, some stay, to be sedate, fairly, as you pass 10 years, 12 years, in mediration, more stay, you can remember more of what happened, in meditation, back in reality life ..)), it’s good paper though, decent, printing paper, you know, of your printer, you got inkjrey, lasser? But hasve same pasper regulsr ((and we asre clumsy humsnns, mere misspellings, niot matter changing)) sheet, blank, use gluestick glue down some letters, ah, did you use enough, press hard, also, at end, well, all letters glued hapshsrard nio a dfirm no straight iline though, or mildly, but put anither dheet ((it issdtill here, siomethig else, mattter peelkifts straight lines cut jittered)) over, rub with yur fingers, keep arrangement, get it down solid ((rub on the papers pasted)) .. ah healthy glue stuck, then just ((when it’s all there, ahh, a sheet with words on it, fresh! for design!)) scratch, with pen, not rip paper, what kind of pen, ballpoint, /or/gel ink, /or/permanent, I don’t know, pencil, eraser, white-out, ahl choose your tools, rubbing alciil, old white tube sock, holes, but it’s washed, clean, ah get tio business, takes many yeasrs, feel words whscky matter antimstter oh sciuentuidtssmoke aciggie really we must live this not judstwrite papers on it,matter, universe, gidor fo foor god no fot fight, stop wriotig paspoers, hsvecgkestucks pemnciils flostig words medistion, people;e tsat resd the work, dint strictly meditate,m they help, the ones thst meditate, maybe reading this is its own meditation ../, whst they saty, as beigs,m whst theyrscrstchy persionality is, complex, biutter, happy, even if a world “happy”/ diesnt mean in theend it looks “hapopy”/ scrstch with pencil gert stark lines dirty in spare glue stuck durt it’s oksy bsby everythigs okasy/ ah .. amnd all this book, links to it, chi kubg, the slow glo going of it .. oopsiioah, it’s pretty, when you realoizr, justtake it sloiw, when you areappriachig, understanding if matter, and something, not going by the tules, tools “of all humsnly possibl eknoiwmn” ah we sgretch out here, a dufferent bargainreig, umsgined us, inmagined us it did coming in .. wants us to imagine it?!, or an approdotrpuastye lanusge apoopalyticcrestion touch on it hiw it’s like toi be here, as well it’s nit like our dressetr oit the guirls fsce or cars or buildings or anyones f\ce or swayig great door on wind ass .. hiwdo we dind find whanything else, that appesrs, uses the roasds none, of humsn spesch, all ysed up but wait/ emotig, hsvig emotion, acmn hungry sasd soft happy cheepsy blameworthy strifedent .. but acceientsdents strangely “you expect to do this in life talk to me” words slow in their air look saround stip seem tio settle, deciude, think sboiut me it ..), asre they of matter, like your bedroom dresser is of mstter, like a girl’s face is of matter .. are her feelings .. di;t hurt her niw .. wheredo we float / try exoperiment dint knoiw thisway, wiuth close, my bresthig, not my art, not my science, not my religion, but my bresralathing, wasy I relate, behind the pesaintbrushes “Nio! Doint go there!; vut we must, and I do” ../.. feelinghs, imno impressions, judgements, reserve judgements .. whst are you, yoiur rash thoughts, your uncle insude, yltumstesly cantwoirl k with much if the inside peeperoop, especially thewall of blur bum sag wack .. oh my .. whst do wedo, hry yeshie feeloff dome other point ..
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Ongoing, do the thing that is good for now, look at it later. May be years “sah, so that is what I meant then. And this is where I skip must go now.” On thigesvy subject is it ever appriosched is it everdine skip leap fiercely? We hsve so much ti do with “judst as we are” fioolig with matter, whether it be lestatterher of plstiunum, fooling gosh with it.
Nit with whst made it. Meetig ioff vuttinfgappo9unrment dhirt going outsidestsrig it.
So fsrfetched “oohh you canlt do thst eryuc!” what
Good thig nibidy resadsthis.
I work quietly.
In living thethig thst msde matter, just amongst us, on streets. Where it wantsti be. Noit in lsbs.
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The matter of words, represented in porintimng on page, in speaking from mouth, in thinking rgwat, thwat in drawing, dink but whst else, whast else you git in there, nowhere, we can think if. Use meditstion stop thinking pose feel it poesc walkedul duesnt barge intio esrth.
Takr yoiur time.
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oh eric back here on blog we need a lot of pictures with words I don't think there's enough pictures here, oh ha widespread lockout of words off of bridge of ship landluve you sail pricking, aroiybd the worldceuise, calm irdsaretured/ words returned we are live here can't do ant any of this worked hard coal mines little piles of powder on paper birthday wish perfectly piled little piles clear words garbage, see the coal miner haste or paste night job be turned to do extra sophistication mine any thioughts for too-soon perfect in everybody's expectant eyes "I want crap absoostact sort tits wham baby milk waste of time i need to talk this time baby i say to girl in here only 30% of my words mud them good, I want bulid adobe conversation like mid turn that way whstsit ball of turnpike" ditstiurned distirned form say some of this or lay iodffdrink, i had none .. we need spirits of coal, dust splatter from words mischiever uner sewing gawing shocked constructioin it;'s all okay stasnd there person kind odeerily quiet the perfectsays nothig we are nit due fyur perfect thistime soonasriound, it was too soon
okau. bye fyr now. i work, i have top me out pee, i work grt better flu few days, but flyig all life bad plane dup winf wind wing shake turbulence use us all up mental health rebate car discount thanks new day radiant hear load wlth wealth of get soul in order sappy one give me a break say it nit sound sdtuoid build other be beeping build traffic mousetrap people toe in water of this thinking this in the sweat of it all, contact them, all is a blank face /ser you there being hah fun doze something casual seripappous12 years carry packsack meditation never done did good enough did do it real struggle find something
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