Ah we all dream. Janey and Merle sit at tables or more tables people exchanging papers looking at each other’s and shy to speak, to go into the crazy talk resbitpected rest bit of pecked at? ha ha bright and even in its own way ..
We all got to come to this conclusion our happy silly drawings some seriousness but we have studied and read and tried the meditation and tried to include all the extra parts of life, sound so crazy like angels floating from mental homes half and half or anyone sick and ill “and no longer part of life” how it goes, how we hold up, as everything .. and don’t listen to precious oil drill their minds richness include them “no, crazy is crazy” “nothing there” .. it finds its way .. gently, peaceably ../ when some “is just foolish crazy” “but some is not at all”
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So here’s a bit of this morning’s writing, from offline ..
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Sunday, October 6, 2013 9:15 am
Oh, life, a little bit crazy, a little bit off-kelter .. who can have an ordinary loving life “ordinary is good” “love me, stay with me” or push, with these pressures, push, for birth of what, all the crazy, everything gathered, all the crazy, all the notmal/ nirmal, all the quedtinabke nirml, all the questuonabke crazy/ you too/ except the other way, are you absolutely fine? C’mere son let me embrace you/, there you go. People meetig with dumb little drawings, like mine “do you think they’re dumb littke things?” as I try ti fill in, canlt reach quite for the new being, thast I can be, thast we all can be (do words rteally float there what do they feel like whst is theuyr personality, oh is this DMV thing diagnostic manual, or just poor humans reaching for what they can’t have, out of their reach not this planet not this universe. Hold me. Give me a few simple drawings. Explain, your angle. Some of it calm./ let mme see a little, talk of the very weird, oh meet and be cautious and nit sure do our irdunsr nirmal lives include the very weurd, in whst way?) ordinary normal include the very weird) .. ah, I resd the book ast hime, the material, “aah it’s a lirtrrle bit crazy woyldnt you think?” and to meet you on it people you find online or in clubs gatherings bookclubs artisdts clubs nonartists just people wondering after all the tiredness give me a place into the very weird, that’s okay, a differtent very weird now/, you feel like suych a fool, self-drawings me at very weird ogh!l drawings, try me I can do this side drawings side door my life something comes oh my it’s weird while I continue blustering with mioneu and fame and refrigerators and celebrities where we going “and talk a little” yiou feel like sych a fool, talk in thus manner, attempt, where words my human face launches, go into public, where they “may” just stop, urg, i psnic, ah “talk sbout it, on the outskirts, hibt / ribbet .. nothing, crickets chirping, silence /hsve never met annybidy thst gio absolutely rufght into it/ eric give us more hints, as we refuse to meditate but will do this/ or a very rare few among us meditate/” as we move the pupulstion forward, in this evoltution thast we hssve a paintbrush in art hsrdon in what clitpeni, or some part, feel it “do I need medustion, eryc, actually need thast sit on cushion, fsce my hiorrube insides, are tyhey are everybody’s feel you do it I stay nirmal just stare/ hsrrowing, as well as beauty? Evolve/ take thee other rioute? Oh is it really a pasrt of life, eryc? Is it really?”
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And we just have that, yeah.
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Papers, and unable to calm down, orchestrate it, have the mind thinking it, as “life” not so much the human taking a tiny corner of their life to do this, but this is “bigger” well it stumbles, to the world stage, is blinded by the lights, fades, melts/ no it really doesn’t come out and say it “that I’m crazy but useful each of us in our crazy have some use far abandoned far passed by but therein lies some answers we always knew that, is this feasible” .. ah, but humble, the little being doesn’t want money, game to fame, gamey untasty asccessories, hsmgers on beauty in superfucual ways what weho, it really just wamts ti be recignized, held, as “real” some chaste unnoticed little bugger? What? oh just kidding it’s the real crazy the genuine helpful crazy, not just mentally ill cared for, but valued, mature enough to value it, very strange
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/endf’ snippet/ 9:40 am
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Oh the fuirming of it, grsdually, really really crazy thigs, some little tiny thing “not so crazy” “not really, has the brand crazy on it I think” life .. a lot of notmal things are really quite strange, our value of money, of people parading their power, wealth, and can you ever sit at their table to tell them ino squeaky little tuny bo/voice “you canlt love’ in squeaky little tiny buillo beautifuloice, who urk can love, is it the poor, is it the rycjh, or is it the crazy, with some frare function, found, the rasrest of the rare, crazy forming itself into a better day, for world, crazy you so ugly why should we look to you famne and money is sobeautiful/, taking steps, as there is no support, to take these steps ..
Crazy you is taken csre of money from gverment guies intio csrig fur thethe gonem, canlt work, is stuopid – yopu is gine we look to youi fir NOTHING
Poor crazy no university education no big job no money in the bank, crazy, you start something, no, not some bizarre violence, but something really soda=pee=soft whart ah spen days wriying thinking quiet house and intelliogemt
You stsrt thst kind ofcrazy okay? What was that was that flimsy dumb what was that
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As we need it, “in our funished functioning world” no one to look to, join the dots, these unlooked uncapablelookpieces, we dionlt want to look st, these pieces ../
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/endf’ snippet/ 9:55 am
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/so that’s some writing from offline, oh, I’m halfway to the blog here, feeling it, oh life, include some pictures, of little papers, people might have in a room, sitting around, exchanging, talking, giggling, occasionally, silent, yes some of that, trade, hear news, of these “artists” ah just typical people, are they “watered down artists”? “not the true thing”? or something else altogether ..
Papers, how does an ordinary person draw, what does it look like, and who are they attached to it, are they art, what is this, talking this “crazy stuff” are they art, or some created being, some evolution, past the art world, emerges out of the art world, is not the art world, oh is a combination of all kinds of things, stabilize, through meditation, talking in this new form, you start to shake and dissolve and lose your bearings panic .. some don’t, it is a peculiar art, peculiar way of living, the human moving forward from where they were, /or maybe yeah .. oh the human stay put “this is not human” what is this?
What are your drawings, you work at, and alone, out of the art world, out of the galleries, and alone? Trying to develop as a person?
All of us?
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Oh the crazy drawings ah the little peeps from lots of people no they don’t want to end up in a mental home go around unfurl old rollies cigarettes get the little bit left burnt partially smoked tobacco save a big bag be really proud .. and things like this .. and things, away we go, modern society, what do we gather, to sum up, to move on, we can’t seem to, it is stuck where it is, and love is not done, and crazy is not done .. undone .. no one wants to unravel, at love, or at crazy, we try to hold it together, at money and at fame, we try to say “this is okay” “we are making it” “this is okay” and love seems to be weak, the little pieces of it, honest, and crazy seems to be weak, its beauty, some small pieces, ah friends compatriots, crazy love, nice, sweet, ah offshoots going out where what gathers for summing up on life including, to possibly sum up on life?
Get a handle, on what it is, and move on to a better place.
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What kisses what it is, interfaces, from these strange places?/ we donlt wamt ti to kniow someone go in talk go sround look touch fund soomethig there.
Find it if you can scrapysrd denizens thrown away feel them eruc fuir you sre on e too
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Ah the papers Janey and Merle try to get a little going people meet discuss “yeah that’s quite a big crazy book eric wrote” “yeah” another person pipes up “I mean it’s unreadable the total amount I mean .. I mean it’s a good book entertaining knowledgeable .. um .. it’s far-reaching, but how to grasp how to have the time, do all this, all the shit, meditation, shit” we know what he means, ah, another person pipes up “Eric wants us to support ourselves, be shown in galleries, as well as just talk in our usual life like this” there is a pause /“yeah it’s quite a stretch to do that” someone says / we fear talking like this, coming out in the open, the mind as it is explore sweet thing bring into the open air share “you’re quite crazy” all of us .. share, slowly, see what works, what works for a world, rolling better, on this, rolling along better
So many of us we have “light of day” “how we interact” so much is held back we don’t know what it is, how to say it, how to express it, what it is .. this is a start, helps, a well-known book, respected, organizes some of it, delves in .. to quietly slowly respectfully have a deeper part of ourselves .. but not without messes, that’s for sure
There are messes
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But the papers, and the book, sail along “I don’t want to talk the crazy .. not quite yet .. I remember a part, oh, floating in midair, the words .. that is way beyond me” I’ll just take it slow, draw, meet, have tea, have a pop, don’t really get much farther than that .. I’m scared .. society has said this is bad .. to reveal this
I’m scared/ oh “sick people” have no different way of talking, oh a little but it’s still pretty much how everyone does it, it influences us all don’t reveal this, pepper in amongst usual talk, something else take it forward to a new being not measureable with medical instruments not even there ..
We know it is there, quietly, the nitmal and weuyrd people and everuyine quietly seeing cmmin grund and seeig whst they can shsre/ common ground we isill on the way chisel chip form new being that strangely waits in midair so scared to use ouir minds this way soppul see4rl crazy insanity words creativity money life drawings gallery gather together world meanuingn ah eric yiu’ve rteached/ retched? for as bit too much to getting here we lope coyotes rats fever disdain m,ental creep ti this place
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We like maybe having a way, our comfortable lives, some of us, ah cracks in the veneer, don’t know what to say, if we keep our lawns green won’t it all go away? .. and a few little scrap weeds, and a few little more, we still do some of it, but not so much now ..
And we do this now then.
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